Light of my Life

I can hardly believe it. On this very day nine months ago I was sitting in a hospital with my baby girl in my arms. Today I'm watching her crawl all around the house and get into absolutely anything she can get her hands on. I can't begin to express what she means to me. I never even imagined myself the mother of a girl...Boy after boy after boy and honestly I just didn't think it was in the cards. I was absolutely in love with the "boy" babies and never even thought of having a girl. Everyone knows that we were not trying when we found out that I was pregnant with Allie..we were done and happy with what we had. Caleb was still a baby and we decided when Caleb was born that we didn't want anymore. When I found out I was pregnant with Allie I cried for weeks...I was depressed and could not see the light at the end of the tunnel. The moment I laid eyes on her every doubt I had went away..I was made to love her. I can't explain the connection that I feel when I am with her. I have so many hopes and dreams in the years to come. My baby girl is growing up and as much as I would like for time to stand still so she could stay little for longer I am relishing every moment of her growing up.

Allie-

The past nine months have flown by. It seems like just yesterday that the doctor handed you to me after you were born. I remember your daddy was so mesmerized at watching everything that was going on he didn't even have the camera ready. You came out and the doctor looked at him and said "what by the time the fourth one comes you just forget everything?" :) He immediately remembered and started clicking away. You know better than anyone that the clicking hasn't stopped since. I asked your daddy the other day if he thought you ever got tired of the paparazzi. You're crawling up a storm now..you started a couple of weeks ago and I can't keep you still anymore. You have finally accepted baby food and I believe you are actually enjoying it now. Your favorite is applesauce and bananas. You are not a big veggie person right now. You absolutely hate green peas. You love bath time!!!! As soon as I put you in the bathtub at night you splash and laugh the entire time. When it's time to rinse your hair I lean you back and hold your head in one hand while I rinse you off and your legs and arms start pumping and you laugh and smile the whole time..I love to watch you! Your sleeping habits leave alot to be desired right now. You spend the majority of the night in between your daddy and me although alittle more on my side than your daddy's. Most nights I'm left with about a foot of bed and can't move in the morning. You're still waking up to eat during the night once although it's closer to early morning lately. You're scared of absolutely anyone that doesn't live in our house right now. You're fine just being around them but if they talk to you then you start screaming. You're making sounds and cooing like crazy..your daddy is convinced that you're saying Dada and I let him think it but we all know you're really just talking to me. Allie-you are my world. I love you more than you will ever know. I can't wait for everything to come. I can't wait to buy you your first Barbie and tea set. I can't wait to watch you grow up and experience life with you. I love the way you light up when I walk in a room and bounce up and down with a huge grin on your face. My absolute favorite thing in the world is to watch you with your daddy. He adores you and little girl between you and me..you've already got him!!!! Whatever you want I just know it'll be yours..he's wrapped around your finger already. We love you Allie and we'll always be here for you no matter what!

Here's my baby nine months ago.


I wanted to have a picture of her that was actually taken today. She really wasn't into getting pics taken this morning so this is about as good as it got. I'm going to get some more later and hopefully she'll be in a better mood.