Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Which way is right?

Have you ever been so confused and miserable that you don't know which way is up? Ever feel like you are blamed for someone elses problems? And to top it all off what do we do when we are upset other than shove our faces full of food. This is the worst time in the world to have a house full of Halloween candy!!!! I am eating like crazy! I've had a really bad couple of days and I am to the point right now that I don't know which way to go next. I have alot of soul searching to do in the very near future and my heart is extremely heavy. My brain is so confused and full of thoughts that I don't know which way to turn now. My heart aches so badly I don't know how to dig my out of this hole. Funny how we always look at pictures and see the "picture perfect family" or "the grass is always greener on the other side" kind of thinking. I have never asked for anything extravagant or over the top..I just want my life back right now. Please forgive me if this is jumbled and confusing for that just mirrors my life right now. I had to get it out somewhere...so why not here right...that's the joy of having a blog. Or at least that's what I'll tell myself.

11 comments:

Windy said...

You can say whatever makes you feel better. No matter what it is, turn it over to God. He can and will handle it for you. I felt the same way a couple of weeks ago (family drama) but I realized there is nothing I can do on my own, so I have just turned it over to Him, and feel so much better:) I'll say a prayer for you.

Amanda-The Family News! said...

I had family drama - well still really do, but when it first started not to long ago I blogged about it and how irritated I was, but i figured out that i wasn't going to let it bother me - but yes I do know where you are coming from! Hope all gets better....thinking of you!

Lori said...

big hugs! hope you find comfort in expressing your feelings in words. When things get tough that is when we as mothers are expected to hold the family together and often it is the time we just wish to be alone. I hope you find some peace and comfort soon.

HUGS!

He And Me + 3 said...

I think that we have all been there. We are all here for you to vent to. Remember the old saying "let go and let God" easier said than done, but it sure helps to give it all to Him. I pray that you are able to sort through & find some peace today.
((hugs))
Mimi

The Mom said...

**HUGS**Hoping you can find your way out of the 'maze.'

momstheword said...

We've all been there. A couple of days ago I was in tears and feeling bad about myself because of an upset woman blowing up at me. People get upset and say or do hurtful things sometimes. I don't know your situation but sometimes it helps to talk about it, so find someone you feel safe to talk to. I spoke with my husband and a dear friend (who was there when the woman blew up) and they were very comforting. Above all, talk to God. And remember, this will pass....it always does.

I'm sending you hugs and prayers....BTW, chocolate was looking pretty good to me a couple of days ago too!

Jessie said...

(((Hugs))) I am a new reader to your blog and just wanted you to know that I know how you feel! Will be praying for you and your family.

Genevieve said...

Honey, I totally understand...if you ever need an ear to listen, I'm a hop-skip-jump and away. :)

Blogs are for venting, it's healthy.

Everyday Mom Designs said...

I am sorry you are going through a hard time.. I think we all have our moments... some moments last longer than others.. I know we have had our fair share of them. Just hang in there and don't worry about what you write on your blog.. It is a place for you to write as you feel.. if someone gives you trouble, let me know, and I'll handle it for you. :)

McCrakensx4 said...

Praying that you find the peace you need. Venting...what are blogging friends for! Give it to Him, that's what He wants. Have faith and know that others are praying for you.

Wife to the Rockstar said...

I am sorry. And yes I do know.

I have eaten like a million pieces of candy this week. Stress will do it to ya.