Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Behind the Horses Ass

Whew..what a last few days it's been. I have to say I felt alittle lost yesterday. I got up in the morning and sat down to check my email and the phone and computer wasn't working. The phone finally came back on about lunchtime but I couldn't get the internet to work until last night. I have a ton of catching up to do with everyone so I'll try to get that done today and/or tonight hopefully. I'm trying to get things organized and cleaned up for Christmas. I like to go through toys before Christmas so that we can clean out stuff they haven't played with for a while in order to make room for more stuff they won't play with since they get so much stuff :)

Thank all of you for your comments and uplifting words to my post the other day..you have no idea how much I have leaned on those in the past couple of days. It's been rough but I'm still here and he's still trying so I suppose that says something. I really can't explain to someone who has never gone through it how incredibly tiring and difficult it is. There have been more moments than I can count that I have had enough and I just don't want to continue anymore but I do and we have another day. It's a constant struggle every second of everyday right now but I want for all of you to know how much your words mean to me!

11 comments:

Tracy said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. My father in law is an alcohalic who has been sober for nearly 20 years. I'll say a prayer for you and your family that your husband is able to control his disease as well.

Lori said...

no computer would make me a bit out of sorts too! I have started sorting toys too, but I'm just shifting them from Blake to Colby... lol! I know they will get a ton of toys, but I don't put them all out (nor with b-day gifts too). I let them keep out a few and put the rest away so that I can pull out new toys all year

Windy said...

You keep on hanging in there. You be the best you can be and show him love (even when and if you don't feel it) and keep your chin up for the kids. Even tho they are small, they can tell if something is wrong with you.

Julie said...

I feel lost without the internet too! Imagine being without it for a week! :)

I hope things get better with the hubby. You're in my prayers.

Everyday Mom Designs said...

Oh no! No computer! I would die.. haha..

I'm glad we could all be of some help.. I wish you nothing but the best, and if possible, I hope this journey is as easy as possible for you and your family.. I know that is almost impossible, but I still wish for it for you.

He And Me + 3 said...

I can't even imagine what you are going through...not one bit. But I am praying for you and your family.

Amanda-The Family News! said...

I am going thru the toys too - not buying many for Lauren since she can recycle the ones we still have from Avery!!!!!
Hope you are doing better!!!!

Alicia said...

Bless your heart, Stephanie!!!!!!!

momstheword said...

You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers, my friend!

McCrakensx4 said...

Glad that all is back and working with your techno stuff! That's no fun when you can't get to the cyber world! Happy day to you :)

McCrakensx4 said...

Glad that all is back and working with your techno stuff! That's no fun when you can't get to the cyber world! Happy day to you :)