Friday, August 27, 2010

Starting Over

I feel like I can't grab hold of my life right now and it's so frustrating! As I was finally getting in the schedule of Lucas and Jacob back in school Caleb and Allie were scheduled to start. They are in preschool for two days a week three hours per day and that's been a major adjustment. You'd think with the two of them gone that I would have tons and tons of time to get things done and I'd be as relaxed as I could possibly be. It's the total opposite though - I'm crazy when they're gone. I'm either at school busy there from the moment I drop them off until the time to pick them up or I'm running around somewhere else. I find that I'm further behind than ever!!! At least when they were home I could get stuff done around the house and accomplish things on my to do list - when I'm gone I don't accomplish a single thing. This week has been difficult - I've felt lost in the shuffle.

I feel like I can't keep up with the four of them right now. With the younger two at preschool and the new worries that come with that I am constatly talking to a teacher or worried about something with someone. I have no idea how this is going to work - I think I might have been a little too confidant in my ability to handle four of them in school and involved in activities. Allie and Caleb are adjusting to school or at least I hope they are. I'll have to post more about that in a day or so with pictures - believe it or not I actually do still have pictures and tons and tons to blog about. I have just been completely out of it-forgive me please.

On top of that my computer has been messed up since I got it at Christmas time. The Geek Squad at Best Buy told us to delete something on it the day we opened it up out of the box that totally screwed me over. I couldn't watch videos or listen to music for the last 8 months. Wednesday I had to restore my computer to factory settings and therefore had to get rid of everything. In doing that I can listen to music and watch videos now but it's been a huge process. Thankfully I have my external hard drive so all of my pictures are on there along with the majority of my documents. I forgot to save my email contacts though so I lost all of those. If I had your email then I've lost it so if you haven't sent it to me yet please email it to me. :) Right now my computer is like it was the day I took it out of the box - not a single thing on it. I figure if I'm having to put everything back on I might as well start out organized so at some point I'll figure out a system for how I want things and I'll get them all back on - the thousands upon thousands upon thousands of pictures. Makes me tired just thinking about it!



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11 comments:

Courtney said...

Sorry you are feeling so overwhelmed. Hopefully as the weeks go on you will start to adjust to this schedule. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Erin said...

They have not been in school long I am sure in no time you will get the hang of things. If you need to get more done at home then don't volunteer so much at the older kids school. i know you probably love to do it and the kids might love to have you there but once or twice a month should be all you need to do for helping out with their school. You have 4 children you can't always volunteer like that for each one so why not just do one day a month for each child or figure something out that works with what else you need to get done or how many other activites they have going on that month or season.

Hope you can figure something out

Paige said...

Hold your pretty head high girl =)

Cassie said...

Oh I hate that feeling...that things are out of control and you just can't stop them! Maybe once you all get a little more used to the schedule it will be easier for you!

Kayla Sue said...

Hi! I'm new to your blog, and just wanted to let you know I'm excited to get to know you! I'll be thinking of your family, and hopefully the adjustment will be quick and you'll get that time to yourself! Looking forward to more posts!

He & Me + 3 said...

Welcome back. I know what you mean. My three will start school in 10 days and I am freaking out. I know I will be so busy with school stuff that I won't have time to enjoy my alone time. I think I over committed myself to too many school things.
hope things calm down for you and you all get into a good routine that includes some time for you.

COUNTRY MOM said...

Sorry things have been so rough. Hope your babies enjoy their school and you can get the things done while they are gone that you want.

Hope your puter is fixed soon. I have thought of you and hoped you were doing ok.

I love carrying Baby Boy, But do wish he were here with all that has been going on with him (Movement/failed BPPs). Just to know he is safe and healthy would be a blessing.

steffenboysmom said...

I know what you mean Steph and I'm there too!!! Sorry about your computer, they are nice...when they work!

Hang in there, this week is bound to get better.

Stacy said...

I know, I am trying to get caught up with blogging. It is so hard when everything starts at once! We have Awanas, dance, gymnastics, tutoring, band and the list goes on and on!

Hope things slow down a little for ya:)

~ Noelle said...

i hope things get better for you...
hate that you are rushed... and hate the computer problem...
my hubby is having MAJOR issues on his right now...

Leslie said...

(I'm reading this WAY late because I have been drowning in my life as well.)

It's HARD being super-mom. We all struggle with it. Some days are harder than others for sure. I just figure if I end the day having kept everyone safe and I've done the best I could, then it's just that. I've done the best I could and nothing more could be done. It's a hard adjustment for my nature to sometimes just "get by" rather than "being the best", but somedays there's just too much to get done and not enough hours or hands to do them. So what if there's dirty dishes and a huge pile (or 4) of laundry. We all take a little time together at the end of each day to enjoy each other and get done whatever else we can.

I hope life eases up. :)