Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Behind and Frustrated

I've been so out of the loop. Things are going okay around here I suppose. Still on the AA recovery road-it's hard right now because we're starting over from the word go. I feel like a single mom again because he's gone every single night to a meeting and I'm having to do everything else on my own. Dinner/baths/ball practices. It's enough to drive me insane taking care of kids all day and night by myself. I'm making it though and we're taking it one day at a time-that's about all I can do right now. Thank the Lord for my mom-she's here and has helped me out with ball practices if I need it and she's jumped in at the last minute to help with dinner or even go grab takeout like she did last night. I don't know what I'd do without her right now!

My computer is messed up so I can't really blog the way I want to. My only connection to the outside world and it's more difficult than ever to keep it up right now. I can't get to my pictures and with the old computer I'm using I can't load my pictures onto her therefore I can't post any to my blog. Frustrating is not even a word for it right now! I am thinking we need a computer fairy-you know one that would just drop one off on my doorstep with a new operating system-that's right I'M BANNING VISTA! Hate it!

I'm going to try and catch up with blogging....I miss everyone and feel horrible that I've been absent. We've decorated inside-did that over the weekend but we haven't gotten the decorations up for outside yet. Guess we're going to have to do that before Christmas Day! Right now it's raining so it's not looking likely for today either. I was just thinking about blogging in the past and as I was looking through there is rarely a single post without a picture and now here I am going on two weeks without them....so FRUSTRATING!
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17 comments:

Shannon said...

I've been wondering how things are going. Still praying for you!

Sharon said...

I'm so glad you have your mom there to help out.
Though our circumstances are different, I know how draining it is to play single parent. My husband has been working 2 jobs for over 2 years now, plus he is in grad school. He is gone often between class, group projects, and studying. I get so burned out from being the parents nonstop, by myself.

You deserve a computer fairy! I wish santa would deliver a new one for you. :)

I know you are still stressed, but you sound better in your post. I hope you are feeling a bit better, too.

HUGS!

Vicky said...

I miss you too!! So good to hear a little something from you... my camera is broken so I am getting by with one I can't seem to figure out very well... sigh. I have been single parenting for a longggggg week and a half... every single night at the hockey rink for hours at a time!!!

But I feel for you... your reasons for the single parenting are especially difficult and I am so glad you are hanging in there!! Thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers!

Cassie said...

I am still thinking about your family and praying for you all. Even though I know it must be so hard for both of you, it sounds like you are being strong and taking care of your family and that your husband is getting the help that he needs and I am proud of both of you for that.

Kelli @ RTSM said...

I know you have been going through a really rough time right now....taking it one day at a time is about all you can do to survive sometimes! I hope things start to get better very quickly for you!

Just Jiff said...

You are excused for your lack of photos and blogging. :)

We all know you're going through a very rough time right now and I'll just speak on the behalf of everyone else now: we're just happy you're blogging at all!

*HUGS*

♥Kim said...

I bet it is frustrating! I couldn't imagine! Still praying for you guys! Hopefully you'll get your wish soon about that computer you want! :)

Erin said...

Just remember to be strong and we are here for you. I know its hard and it will continue to be hard but keep your head up high and enjoy this Holiday Season with your children and family. Always here for you and will be here when you have more time to blog as well :)

Heather said...

I'm so sorry life is the pits for you right now. Guess I didn't really know what to say about your husband's relapse... except I'm sorry. I'm sorry for the extra pressure it's putting on you and the extra frustrations you're feeling. And I'm sad he gave in to the temptation. I've never had an addiction myself (except food, but who doesn't??), and I have no idea how hard it would be. Hang in there!! You're doing great, I'm sure!

And yes, BOO VISTA!!! I don't like it either. And I'm married to a Microsoft-product lover. Ugh! Sorry to hear about your computer. Hopefully Santa will bring you diamonds in your stocking!! You deserve them! : )

He & Me + 3 said...

Oh no. I hope that your computer problems get resolved...you have been missed. Praise God for Moms..they sure are lifesavers.

Laura said...

Hang in there Stephanie! I have been thinking of you and praying for your family a lot lately. I can totally understand how frustrating all this is, so happy your mom is there to help you out.
Hugs,
Laura

Sneaky Momma said...

I am glad that you have the support of your mother who can help you out from time to time. Would it be possible for her to watch the kids so that you can get an hour or two to yourself?
Thinking of you......

E @ Scottsville said...

Well, with all that you're going through right now, we come here to hear how YOU are and pictures can't show us that. We want to HEAR YOU and so you're doing that. =0)

You asked how I am? I'm really good. I'm peaceful, content and busy. That about sums me up right now. I just love the 'peace'... I can't think of anything I'd rather feel right now.

Yes I get 'lonely', and I worry about being lonely forever, but I hope that's not what God has in store for my life.

We shall see. In the meantime, I'm soooooo glad I have my kids to KEEP ME BUSY and to love on. They fill that void for now!

Alicia said...

Hi Stephanie. I know that computer problems can be so frustrating, especially when it comes to blogging.

I'm still praying for ya guys!!!

Courtney said...

Stay strong, it sounds like things are on the right track for your family right now. Continue to take it day by day. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Drew said...

Hey! Send me an e-mail if you'd like. Maybe I can figure out what's going on with your computer.

MarvelousMOM said...

I wish we lived closer so that I could help out! xoxo