Friday, August 14, 2009

Friday Photo Flashback




Alicia over at More Than Words started this Friday Photo Flashback for those of us that have scanned photos on our computers...it's a time we can dig through the old pictures and share some memories with one another.

This week is an emotional one for me. This coming Wednesday my second youngest is starting kindergarten. I can't begin to wrap my mind around that concept and honestly I haven't let myself sit and think about it yet but I know the time will come that I'll have to face it..I'll probably lose it then but that time will come. It's hard enough thinking that Lucas is entering the third grade..geez..where has the time gone but the fact that I am taking my itty bitty boy and putting him that big huge school scares the daylights out of me. I mean I can't possibly be there enough to make my heart feel better and to know that he's okay. I remember the first day that I took Lucas to kindergarten...I wasn't ready for that either but he was and he tackled it head on. Lucas adapts to change very well and never has an issue. Jacob is the total opposite. He doesn't handle change well and it takes him a while to warm up. If he gets a bad taste in his mouth then it's all over for him. Things just feel so differently now than when Lucas started school. When I had Lucas I was so young that I was kind of in overdrive for a while. Obviously I wasn't ready when he was born and suffered from post partum but I did what I had to do and much to my surprise with tons of support from family we made it through. When I had Jacob though I was a totally different person. I was older and wiser and knew alittle about what I was doing. I was ready and wanted it more than anything...now he's leaving me and I feel like my heart is breaking in a million pieces. He's still my baby...inside he's still so small and he still wants to be held and cuddled just like the little ones do...heck they all have their moments..even the 8 year olds want to be held every now and then even if they don't fit on your lap anymore. Honestly I just don't want to let him go. When Lucas was in school I was new to the whole volunteer thing and I did stuff for his class but wasn't fully involved like I could have been...I wasn't there every single opportunity I got. I've decided I'm jumping in...with Caleb and Allie and all! Baggage or not..I'm going to be there! I don't want to miss a second...I see time flying by so quickly and I'm grabbing hold and going to enjoy the ride. Lucas only has three more years of elementary school and then I'll have babies in separate schools so while they're under one roof I guess I'll just pitch a tent and live there if I have to :) For now here's my baby alittle over five years ago...geez...it doesn't even seem possible!



I love this picture...Lucas was sitting on the floor eating goldfish..I think he was playing like Jacob could actually share with him :) of course he couldn't! This was when they actually got along most of the time...oh those were the days!

16 comments:

MarvelousMOM said...

So crazy to look back at pictures. I get all weepy looking at Skylar's older pictures. And Swae is starting 2nd grade. Seriously blows my mind. I can't even imagine little Sethie starting kidergarden! Your little ones are precious.

Alicia said...

Oh, your babies are so cute!!!!

Your post made me want to cry!!! I can just tell how hard this is for you!! I have no words of wisdom, my dear, since I homeschool and never had to experience that. If it helps at all, I would be the same way!!!!!!

COUNTRY MOM said...

Stephanie, Thank You for sharing. What a great post. Beautiful pic. I have babies all ages. Some grown, some very young. They will always be my babies. I too enjoy every single minute, they grow up way to fast. I really enjoy it when we are all together. Hope you have a great weekend. Blessings,

Becca said...

Aw what a little cutie! I can hardly believe mine is about to be one . . . so I cant even imagine how you must be feeling!!!

Muthering Heights and Other Senseless Sensibility said...

Awww, isn't sad that they grow up so quickly?

He & Me + 3 said...

Yes, time does fly by. I wish I could freeze them for a while. Cute pictures.

Veronica said...

Such precious pics, Stephanie! It's crazy just how fast the time flies. I have one more year before Alyssa starts school and I know it will be here before I know it! I'll say a little prayer for you guys this week! :)

Erin said...

Time does fly, doesn't it. I remember when my second one went to kindergarten, I brought my youngest with me to every volunteer assignment. I figured that she was a really good baby and she'd be fine and they'd get used to her and it would work and it did! It will be great!

♥RocĂ­o♥ said...

Oh my Time flies so super FAST!!!
Your babies are
☼¨`*•.ADORABLE♥.•*¨`☼

Dea said...

Thank you for the comment on my blog! You have such cute kids, wonderful pictures!

Vicky said...

I share your pain, as mine will be gone all day for the first time too... we are doing 1st and 3rd grade this year, ouch :) That is awesome if your school allows you to bring your younger kids with! I could not bring my youngest with so I couldn't volunteer much at all... I'll make up for it this year :)

Hugs to you for this new journey you are on :)

McCrakensx4 said...

What fun pictures..I am sure he will do great! Can't wait to read all about it! Hoping you are having a good weekend and thanks for all of your well wishes & prayers regarding Colin!

Liz said...

Momma's everywhere are reflecting as their kids start school...how time flies...cute cute pictures....I feel the same way...got a second grader and kindergartener this year...

Alicia W. said...

Oh Stephanie! You can do this honey.. Just think .. you made it through Allie's 1st birthday and you will make it through Jacob's first day of school. You have done and continue to do such a marvelous job raising your kids. Stay strong and you know I'm here if you need me. HUGS

drewmark19 said...

My "baby" is going to kindergarten too. I'm having a hard time with it. What really stinks is that I really can't volunteer at school due to being a teacher myself. That makes me sad. :(

♥Kim said...

I know what you mean, well sordove. Time does fly, and seems it flies fast when you have your own family & babies. He sure is a cutie! I hope his first day went ok!! Keep us posted!