Everything in life comes full circle and yesterday was one of those moments that I realized this. You see I never thought I'd have a little girl. I dreamed it - yes and planned those Mommy/Daughter dates in my head but as I started having children and had boy after boy after boy I knew it wasn't going to happen. Even when I got pregnant the last time I knew it was a boy - we just didn't make girls so it wasn't possible. I saved a few things that meant something to me but as I got older I knew they would probably sit and collect dust - one was the blanket that was by far my absolute favorite - I still have that to this day! and the other was a baby doll I got when I was probably 4 or 5 years old. I named her Angel - ironic that I now have a baby doll named Angel when the man I married has an ex wife named Angel - I think not. Anywho when I got her on my birthday it was like I'd been handed a million dollars! I took her everywhere with me and never put her down. She required surgery one time because she was so worn! She was a large doll and very VERY real looking - at the time I think she was probably one of the most real looking ones you could find. My dad and stepmom hated her!!!!! I think she freaked them out because she looked so real - but she was my favorite! She now has one eye that looks very lazy- I think that is when I pulled her eyelashes out - really I don't know why I did that but she has the scars. I used to have an issue biting my nails(bad issue) and when I couldn't bite mine well I'd bite hers and she has those scars too. I told you I was weird!
This picture is grainy but it's 23 years old too - it's amazing to look at the difference in pictures that we take now and those that were taken when we were children.
Yesterday I was getting clothes out of the shed for a consignment sale later this summer and Lucas asked me what that big "old" :( baby doll was doing in there. I figured now was as good a time as any to pull her out and see what Allie would do with her. She LOVED her!!!!!!! I cleaned her up as best I could and changed her 20+ year old clothes -when I cleaned out Allie's baby clothes I kept a good bit and put them in boxes for babydolls - I knew the day would come she would want blankets/towels/washclothes/clothes and I figured why not save the money then and just have it already so we dressed her and Allie had a blast!
I just realized when I looked at this picture how dirty my glass is - that will be cleaned first thing this morning!!!
Kinda symbolic looking at my little girl playing with the same exact baby doll I did when I was little.
Oh and by the way - her name has been changed to Lily!!!
